update?

so after much searching, i found the new kose sekkisei sun protector online and bought. it came a few days ago and it feels almost exactly like the shiseido sunblock that i've been using!  i hope it doesn't break me out and actually works at preventing hyperpigmentation.

cosmetics and skincare combine to make a multi-billion dollar industry that suck young girls and women into finding ways to look "beautiful", a term everyone understands is subjective. despite this, we grow up trying to live up to some version of it.  hopefully, it manages to make us FEEL beautiful.

on the verge

i should be going to bed. haven't really worked out much since my last post. and i'm about to turn another year older.  depressing, no?

excuse the rambling.  introvert on the outside. extrovert on the inside. if that makes any sense. 

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get back in shape!

not just physically but also mentally.  i've been letting myself go, taking the easy route.  but i need to be taking care of my body as well as my mental state more.  i was extremely irritated today. for lack of a better term, i was pissed.  i felt so out of control -- by not having control.  i've also realized that i have an ego (yes, ha ha) as well has have pride(?) issues.  i know it's bad but i feel so protected with it. i guess i need to tone it down a bit but at least i have some form of a defense mechanism.  right?

iope sunblock white spf47

I have been searching for a powerful sunblock with whitening power to prevent pigmentation (freckles and sun spots) for a while now.  My sister recently bought the Laneige Star White Multi-protector and it has what I want in it...BUT it's so darn sticky on the skin.

I've gotten so used to Shiseido's super liquidy sunblock that I cannot stand the sticky residue the Laneige sunblock leaves behind.  One of my coworkers says she uses the Iope Sunblock white and she really likes it.  I tried it on in the store on my arm and it does feel LESS sticky than the laneige sunblock. However, it is still a cream.  I have yet to find a different whitening sunblock that is affordable.  The Iope one is around $35 for only 2 fl.oz. so that's already gosh darn expensive for a sunblock.  I heard the Dior Snow sunblock is good but it's around $50 (more than I'm willing to spend).

I've been searching online for reviews of the Iope sunblock but alas, to no avail!  Has anyone tried this sunblock besides my coworker??? Is it even suitable for younger skin? *SIGH*  I wish they gave out samples so I could try it on my face for a few days.  This really stinks.

summer nights

no, not the grease song. i find myself staying up late for no other reason than not wanting to go to sleep.  ridiculous, i know. especially since these nights will be the last few opportunities that i will have for a while to sleep as much as i want for as long as i want.  i shouldn't take them for granted. i am a bit sleepy right now but i don't want to go to bed. 

ok i've made up my mind. bed time!

oyasumi!

reverting back to my regular self?

or more so getting over my latest craze.

anyway, i found out that i enjoy thought provoking phone conversations.  too bad they've been on the non-existent side lately.  and staying up late has made me develop night time munchies.  i'm really hungry right now and could use a giant eggroll.  yum.

vietnamese food really is the best.