two months in!

unlike my post below, i've adapted and my old habits are catching up to me.  i spent no time studying today. i just watched drama.  terrible, i know.  well, i'll make tomorrow worth it by waking up early and working all day. HOPEFULLY.

i used to think being in love with love is ridiculous.  well, i've pinpointed why i always tend to fall in love with dramas, their characters and corresponding story line.  it's because i've fallen in love with the idea of love as portrayed in the drama.  i know it's entirely unrealistic and won't aid me in my endeavors in any way.  but i can't help but find happiness in watching the warm affection that crosses all limits and boundaries to find happiness.

in particular, i was perplexed by this bit of story line.  girl is in love with a guy who loves her just as much but circumstances separate them (due to no fault of their own).  another guy stays by the girl's side through many years to help her and support her along the way.  he waits and hopes that one day, she would "understand" and accept. 

in many ways, he's just as much of a good man as the girl's love.  he might actually be more considerate than the other guy.  but she doesn't love him.  no matter what he does, she feels no love besides the love of a dear friend for him.  initially, i thought, "oh, i guess nice guys do lose at the end."  the girl's love wasn't exactly a perfect citizen. you could characterize him as a bad boy turned good through her love and understanding.  but back to the "nice guy."  he lost no matter what he did or how he tried.  did he lose because he was a good guy?

no.  because another girl loved him the entire time too.  she faithfully stayed by his side as well.  she might have been the "good girl" who lost.  however, i think that it's true what they say. you can't control love.  no matter how hard you try, love is something dictated not by reason and analysis.  rather, pure passion and emotion controls the path it takes. 

again, this is not always the case, however.  i would like to believe that love can be born after years of devotion and patience.  i have yet to see this happen.  however, its existence would show that effort and devotion matter.  i'd like to believe that these elements make the world a better place.