stressing out

   i was really emotional today.

i bought a big bag of katsuobushi this morning thinking it was salty.  but it wasn't and i was really disappointed. especially because i spent money i didn't have on it.  being jobless is really hard. i guess i really have to eat it as a topping and not as a snack.

for those of you who don't know what katsuobushi is, it's basically bonito flakes you find on top of okonomiyaki or tofu.  those moving things.  yes, it is weird that i thought it would make a good snack. 


onto the emotional part.
i think i saw animal cruelty today.  i was visiting my grandmother when i noticed all the flies swarming around my cousin's dog.  i came closer to find out that her ears were scratched and the flies were trying to get a bite at it.  she was tied up all day and couldn't really move around.  they never bought her a dog house and only tie her to a tree.  there isn't even grass or pavement. just dirt.  they also leave the trash bins right by her little contraption of a doghouse.  she just moves around to keep the flies away as they bite her constantly.  it makes me really sad. but i don't want to get them arrested or anything.  i think i'll go and get some fly repellent for her.  maybe give her a bath and some ointment for her ears. 

i really dispise people who have pets but treat the animals like crap.  my grandmother kept telling me that they really love her and take good care of her.  i don't see that at all.  how can you keep a dog without walking it?  how can you leave her in the hot sun?  i wouldn't want to be treated that way.  ry thinks we should do something.  we probably will. i'm not sure exactly what yet. but neglect is just as bad as intentional abuse.

and worries about the future are settling in.

so today wasn't the best of days.  but i bought a card to cheer me up (from target, of course). it was perfect.

i know you're feeling a little beat up by life lately.

but nothing can keep you down for long.

you're too strong for that.

and you know what?

you don't need to worry about trying to live up 

to anybody's idea of what you should do or be.

 (the inside of the card)

just being yourself is more than enough.

i believe in you.