fate

don't really know what to say except that i tried my best and i am disappointed.

spent the day with him which was nice. he tried to cheer me up and we had a fun time.  i really want to get away. go on vacation.  spend some decent time relaxed and stress free.  i wonder when that can happen.

he insists i continue with the next step but i'm starting to have doubts.  am i going down the right road? or is this a sign to stop and change directions? what else could i do tho?

well, at least i can now go get my haircut.  but i'll probably push it back again so that the next step is done and over with as well.

please. let everything go well and according to plans. once again. fingers crossed.